Released from stupid troubles~

Recently i did not online because of stupid internet...
Stupid TM's port over somewhere got problem making my internet connection failed... For freaking one week i wasn't able to use internet...
By the mean time, my computer just freaking got corrupted don't know why...
Cannot boot even... For that week, i had reformatted this hard disc for 5 times... xD
At last, i can still blog using it, don't know when will it be crazy and go corrupted again... damn stupid computer...
Last week, i was kinda helping my relative on "running" his new IT and computer shop, called Stratos Enterprise. The shop is located at the road which is leading to East Wood, anybody interested can drop by to see computer parts such as RAMs, GPU (Graphic Card), power supply, cases, mouse, keyboard, CPU, cooler and more. Prices over there are reasonably good, so why hesitate? Go over there and check whatever you need to upgrade for your computer. If your computer needs to be fixed, send it over there.

After reformatting my computer today, few hours later, the CPU fan got crazy again!!
What is wrong with this computer!!? Don't care about it now... Cuz this computer is quite old, its growing moustache!! xD





Last Saturday(which was the Earth Hour day), me and my parents went back to Sibu together with my uncle (dad's elder brother) and aunt (uncle's wife obviously..) for "Qing Ming". We started in the morning. It was seriously a long journey. I was at the back seat, and the road is kinda bumpy... I felt kinda sick sitting like that~ I hate it... What to do? Hahax, "Qing Ming" is very important because we as the second generation or third generation would have to respect them right? Without them, where are we?
We arrived in Sibu in the afternoon, approximately 2pm. And we went to my dad's elder sister (GuGu)'s house. Getting the lugages settled and we got ourselves some rest. We went to Sibu's Parkson after that because we wanted to go Pizza Hut... xD

To kill sometime, we did our window shopping... The pizza was nice and delicious, but we have to buy some flowers and the "money"(you know what i mean) for them... Going around, bla..bla...bla....

8.30pm to 9.30pm, we were in my GuGu's house. Earth hour? They don't support... I've got no choice cuz it's not my house, i have no authority... hahax~ My sister was home alone, i don't think that she switched off the lights... haha~



Here comes the real session that we youngsters have to learn... We have to know our chinese tradition and never let it fade away like nothing...

Sunday morning, we went to Bintangor, the place where my grandparents were being buried.

My uncle (dad's another elder brother) who came down from Kuching were there when we arrived. Cuz they planned to go for it on that day...

Going to the grave, first step we just have to clean the grave, it was kinda clean already cuz my relative went there earlier than us and the grave is tiled so it looks kinda clean.

Then, you'll have to light up two red candles beside the grave and burn some "money" if not mistaken as an offering to the Land God (Tu Di Gong).

After that, you'll start burning the "form" that says who and who offer this to their parents and lalala.... That will be the first paper to be burnt, followed by the "money" and all other little little stuffs...
Then we knelt down and started to pray for them...
End of the session~
We did it this way, but i don't know others do the same or not... I think it should be the same e~ xD

That Sunday afternoon, when we were travelling back from Sibu to Miri, we saw a terrible accident... Accident between a truck and a Proton Saga. I was on the newspaper this morning. The Proton Saga was crushed like hamburger... This shows that there is no guarantee buying a proton... They suck.
That moment when my car passed by, i just woke up from my dream, picking up my spectacles to see what happened. There was a jam and everyone was babbling about the accident before we saw anything, so i too, thought that it was an accident. Then when we saw the crushed white Proton Saga in front of the truck, we confirmed that it's an accident (obviously, =.=)
The children from hind seats were taken out and laid beside the car. First i saw the kids being laid down on the grassy area beside the road, they were bleeding and unconcious. The terrifying thing was i saw their mother at the passenger seat being squeezed! Oh crap!
I regretted that i picked up my glasses to see, the victim's face was facing towards the road, means the whole horrified face was exposed! Her eyes were white, turning up and with her mouth shaped-"O". Blood flown out from her mouth were dried when we passed by, she was seriously injured. From her face, she really was scared... Pityful...
If i had not mistaken, they were taking their children to school... See? How much our parents love us, they expect the best from us... So be grateful my friend...
Those children are innocent, they became orphans instantly... Sometimes these thing is undescribable... Sigh... May your soul be with the Lord... Rest in peace.

Passing by the horrible scene really chilled us out... Silence filled the car for few minutes before a new topic was brought up... Seriously, i've not seen any accident "live" before... Poor family... Pityful...
We headed straight to Miri after that. We were kinda afraid and tried to be more careful after seeing that accident however, there was still an Unser overtaking everyone as if the road is his! Beeping straight until he finished overtaking the cars in front of him... Crazy guy... I think his lost his sanity... Insane guy~
We started our journey in around 2pm, and thankx to the accident, we got a little bit aware... So we drove safely and quite 'slow'ly... Before we reach Miri, we witnessed the great sundown and skies... I took the picture down when i was in the car before i start to feel dizzy and sick again... xD
I don't really know since when did i start to like about the skies... I like skies and clouds, they just sooths my mind down... how wonderful is the Lord's creation... Praise the Lord!
We reached home at night... That's all! Nothing else... i bet this story is really boring... I'm really tired typing this lame post....
Anyway, i'm going to upload the photos that i took in the third row of my car... The effect might not be very good but i just want to make it a memory for me... The day that i witness a terrible accident... I didn't take any picture of accident cuz i don't feel like doing it..So don't expect... If you guys were me, would you like to take a picture of how people die in a crash? NO!



Sorry guys, i did no checking for this post... xD
Forgive me for spelling and grammar mistakes... Simply an excuse~ :P

Growing up~

I'm sorry that i was too emotional on that previous post...
Being frustrated over a rejection is just simply naive... Have to grow up as what my dad has told me... Be mature because you'll face a lot more rejection (which everyone doesn't want) in the future and you will have to endure them...
These kind of things are just simply normal in this world because nobody is perfect... and don't tell me that you've never reject someone, don't tell me that you want to know every single person in this world... i don't think so~
It is normal that you reject some of them and some of them reject you, it's a cycle, right?
So, being so emotional over this little matter had just "down-graded" myself.
It is not worthy to become a beast over a monster, right?
It's not worthy become a criminal, a murderer over a thief, right?
Why do you want to be polluted and contaminated by these evil thoughts?
Don't judge a book by it's cover, but have you read the book?
Don't just simply made a conclusion without doing a research...

Treat it as a fate, being rejected by her doesn't mean that she's a bad girl, because you never know, maybe you ever rejected others...
To me, i figured it out and i consider a rejection is a natural phenomenon for everyone has their own thinking and perspective...
I'm on the pathway to a grown up, therefore i have to learn how to let go of something that will block me from growing...
If a mango tree is being blocked bushes, throw away those bushes so that they can grow.
If a road is being blocked by a rock, move it away so the car can go.

As simple as that. I was really over-reacted. That time i couldn't take it, i wasn't generous enough, not generous enough to give away those evil thoughts... I was being controlled, possessed, but now, i've learnt to see old things in new way...
So my friend, rejection is not the end of the world, it is just the beginning to the society. Face it like a man, do not be beaten by this little matter. Be strong!
If you don't like Toyota, you can chose to have Honda; if you don't like Mercedes, you can chose to have BMW. Life is full of options and choices, why are you so desperate over one?
We have the rights to choose, everyone has the right to choose...
Taking a simple rejection so seriously just make you difficult in the future.
I am lucky that my father reads my blog and know what happens to me...
Praise the Lord that i have a father that is good in technologies... He updates himself regularly, therefore, for us, the young ones... we should know more than them for the future world is in our hands!

YOUNG MAN! STAND UP AND SOAR!! BE STRONG AND NEVER FALL!!!
An for the time being, I shall be Legend...
For I.. Am LEGEND~

An expression of mine when i was inside the camp

This is only my expression and my feeling that i had written when i was in National Service camp...
This is what i felt and what happened inside the camp~
Nothing much because we didn't get along, we still don't even know each other... which means i am very weak in knowing others...
Please don't question anything about this, but this passage is only for sharing~


" How can i talk to you like a normal friend?
Everytime i feel like i want to take a glance at your face, I was embarrassed...
Standing in front of you face to face was like burning my little blood pumper- my heart...
My mind was thinking about the words that were supposed to be given out, but my mouth was glued. My voice was muted. Those lyrics on my mind were being drained away by a strong current... I was stunned. Standing like a bamboo without any movement. Later, my legs were geared automatically. I walked away, looking at my feet, wanting to take over the control room to stop myself down. They were unstoppable. Why? I was shy... Am i?
A friend of mine was standing beside, laughing at the useless me...

I thought of... but i overheard that i was being said to be an annoying person. I was puzzled. I was lost. I kept on recall things that i did to make myself being judged as annoying... My heart was like sitting in a room of darkness, with the freezing wind breezing at me, slowly...
I was shivering hard, shrinking as if i were about to die frozen. I was iced. Changing my mind, i tried to think positively. Bringing out the blazing energy within me, melting the ice that had paralyzed me for a long time which kept me from my daily activities.
Cool water droplets were dripping down consistantly, freeing my body parts. I was able to move.

But what should i do? What could i do?

I just wanted to be a normal friend. But how? How can i just sit there, looking at your elegant smile, doing nothing.
I felt indescribably when i saw the tremendous smile, it was shaking my planet... My eyes were caught by the long, silky black hair of yours which splits into two like a river flowing downwards from your forehead... The turning of your head flings your pony tail gently and perfectly as if you were going to give of the scent from your planet from far...
My little blood pumper was active, working over hardworking that i can't even stop it! Until then, my legs were being refrigerator...
My eyes were swinging like a pendulum- left to right, right to left- i wanted to look at you, but i just can't, wanted to talk to you, my throat was giving me a grunt, wanted to approach you, but my body was hooked onto the bench, sweating like i were sitting under the blazing sun...
How? Any first step?

Were there any presence of "ROUND SHIT"? No, i don't think so~

Why do i have to have this feeling when my eyes first struck you?
I wanted to talk to you... I felt like I were lying down on the floor, like a defeated warrior, thinking of lifting up my arm, but i can hardly move my muscles. My cells were dead. My powers was flat... I was 'low-batt'...

Whenever there is an event, my eyes always scan through the place like a CCTV, sweeping the whole room, just want to locate your position, for you didn't install "GPS" of mine... scanning the room... scanning~
Once i had my target locked on, my mind kept on telling me to look at you, to record the every movements of yours... But a look wasn't enough. The desperation was pulling my head towards the certain location at the mean time~
Your beauty, shall i admire...
To know your name, it was my privilege... Praise the LORD!
To meet you, was His plan... Amen!
But to know you, it is my hard work, my initiative is needed to take the first step of knowing you more...

Not much expectation,
lets just be normal friends.
So we will not feel embarrassing...

I have to admit that,
you are gorgeous, slim, pretty and with a mature look...
However, the way you speak is totally different from your look...
Your body is weak... mild training makes you sick...
You should have look after yourself more than anything...
Anyway, meeting you in national service camp, i've considered myself LUCKY~

Because you are a Legacy
as cool as a Viper
as elegant as a Falcon "


Of all that i've felt, i have to conclude with this-
I just felt like you are not the one...
For you are not a Christian, and you had treated me as cold as treating a rock...
Therefore, i shall not be sad over you, for you are not the one in His plan!

Home Sweet Home

Yeah, so much for the National Service thingy, finally i'm now at home typing this post and i don't have to think that i've got to go back in there again... :P
It was really touching on yesterday morning as my West Malaysia friends were watching at us going up the bus... Everyone was like holding their tears, including me... Some of them even wet their eyes with it... I felt like crying but i didn't cuz i bet with my Character Building teacher...
Remember that i never wanted to go into Character Building class and i nearly got a penalty over that~ the teacher told me," You say NS is very boring but after these 3 months, i'm sure you'll cry..." Therefore, i forced myself not to cry... xD

Kinda funny though~ Well, seriously i can't say the camp was fun but it wasn't very torturing though it was boring~ what am i talking about... haha
I meant, shooting using M16A1 was really a fresh experience for me because it was my very first time to touch a REAL rifle and shoot using REAL bullets! That was seriously fun! No joke! This is what NS is for man! Am i right? They are supposed to train us more on physical but not mental; however it was another round~ Damn stupid... Government waste these money for no good...
For my camp, PLKN Kem Miri Kumpulan 1 Siri 6/2009, the sharpest shooter got 80 marks but i heard my friend said in W. Malaysia Millienium camp, the sharpest shooter score more than 90... kinda envy because the short-sighted guy like me only scored 34... i can say, i suck... sigh
To give a support for my failure, i should say, "This is my first time ma~ it's not like we are trained to be shooter... we don't shoot every time leh~" hahax

I've got to say going to National Service was one of His plan.
Honestly, i was lazy to go to church since few years ago. However, He wanted me to go into NS and join the Church Fellowship with other brothers and sisters of Christ. Church Fellowship was on every weeks Thursday and Friday night, and that was the only time that i really enjoyed myself! Praise the Lord for that! I can say this Church Fellowship was a blessing... This is because this fellowship programme had brought me back to the Lord and had blessed me with a good habit...
I'll have to admit it- before this, i just give myself a standard that every night i'll just have to read a verse from the Holy Bible thinking that "as long as i read the Bible"... and reading a verse is seriously not enough, because YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT ARE YOU READING!!!
Bible goes like one chapter to another, so if you are reading one verse per day, you will not get the connection or relation between the verses... Therefore the best is you read the Bible during day time and everytime you read, the minimum is a chapter...
simply read it is not enough, you'll have to understand what does it says!!
My brothers and sisters of Christ, please take into consideration...

I'm kinda disappointed that i didn't really talk to the person that i really wanna meet, the person that i really wanna know... That is why i've written down all my feelings in a note book, and it will be posted into this blog soon~
All my thinkings were jotted there... So i'll not reveal anything~

So much for today's blog, i don't feel like typing cuz my eyes are kinda tired and i too, felt exhausted~

Today we, the Ex-Form5 students went to take our results from our school...
I was not that satisfied with my sucky result... Even though some of them might feel like it is already okay, but i felt like... KANASAI!!!!
To my uncle, my result is still not good... because i got Bs and A2s~
i felt like screaming and shouting and wanting to bang at the door... I kinda regretted that i didn't study well on Form 4...
To those Form 4 students this year, please be alert everytime in class and be attentive, listen to what your teacher teach you, do your homework and understand them so that when you enter Form5, you need not have to catch up a lot cuz your foundation is already perfect...
To those Form5 students who are not really stable on their Form4 homeworks, please stop feeding yourself with excessive entertainment, spend more time on your studies so that you'll not regret like me...
I only got 5A1s, 3A2s and 3B3s...
How did i get B3 for my moral eventhough i had more confidence for it compared to history... can't believe that stupid history that i hate got A2...
I felt deeply hurt when i saw my chinese got B3 eventhough i knew my chinese is not good... but seriously, i remembered i like the essays that i wrote... it was all because of my comprehension, i knew i had a lot of mistakes...
What the heck and how could my EST got &)(*&*&%(^%@#%!@#&*$%(#*&^(&^( A2? I've got nothing to say but to blame myself...
Why am i so careless, why am i so urgggh............... so frustrated and disappointed over myself~
sigh~
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(Grammar and Vocab aren't checked... sorry for that cuz i don't feel like doing it now... very xian~)

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